My dear babies,
There’s a lot I don’t know (see previous blog posts for a good start), and I will continue trying to improve here and there.
But there is one thing I’m good at.
I don’t do “busy” without wonderful reasons.
I don’t say “yes” to all of the favors, invitations, and extra work. I look for ways to be more efficient instead of just more “there.”
And when I am busy, really and truly busy, it’s because I friggin’ love what I’m doing. I give my time to what I’m doing- like a present.
You will hear me grumble about grading papers. I will seem to disappear for days at a time to take care of the seemingly endless task.
It is this hard part that shows me how much I love teaching, though. Papers may crumple me, but never crush- and I usually emerge from the pile fresh, full of analysis, and ready to start swinging at new syllabus policies and future assignment sheets.
Then, there’s the writing, the planning, the collaborating. Mama will again seem to disappear for almost whole days at a time, as the projects try to swallow her up.
I will miss you. I will be tired. It will often be overwhelming.
And I wish the same for you, one day.
I dearly love my projects. I love losing myself in a subject.
I will always endeavor to make enough time for us. I will also try not to regret being really and truly passionate about something that isn’t always kid-related.
My kind of busy means I spend my time with you, and I spend my time doing what I love. Everything else is elevator music and call waiting.
Your mama hopes you will spend your time wisely. Make yourselves not just busy but so, so happy.
Love you always,